I sit for hours sometimes and I just can’t move! Body rigid, breathing short, my eyes flicker as deep and dark thoughts run through my head. I cannot talk. I cannot move. I cannot silence my thoughts. They are fast and sudden, random and separate. I close my eyes in hope of sleep, hoping to trade the thoughts for tranquillity but they still haunt me. The nightmare parades whether I am conscious or not. Glimpses of memories that I thought that I had forgot. I feel panicked. I feel hot. An escape route, there is not. Paralysed, I sit slumped unable to take control. A prisoner to my own mind. No escape, no solution or resolution. I have to endure it, this pain that is riddled throughout my mind, body and soul.