At the bottom of my left arm, Which I usually cover up entirely,
For the sake of those around me,
To avoid judgement,
When I have been unstable and unable to fight,
Come near to the end,
My scars are proof,
That I cannot ignore,
They do exist,
And remain permanently,
They lead you through my history,
That I should not be shy for you to see,
As they are a huge part of me.
Now lies a ring that shines like all the stars have been lit up in the galaxy,
To guide me through my destiny,
After all the rejection and neglect,
I have now found the man who sees no challenge,
Whom loves me unconditionally with pride and not an ounce of regret.
Alas we must make it down the Isle yet,
But he loves me,
Come what may,
The challenges I must endure in recovery,
Shall not break me,
That is a destination we shall triumph to excel and success.
Somewhere beyond the grave, Beyond the clouds,
Beyond the stars,
Beyond the galaxies,
There is a place that so far I can only dream of.
A place where only the good may roam.
I cannot see it,
I cannot hear it,
But I can taste it,
I can feel it,
I believe in it.
This is the place where we are all destined to go,
Yet how we conduct ourselves in this lifetime may stop us from reaching.
Whether we all make it,
All my loved ones and I,
I do not yet know,
But some secrets are to be kept,
As we are unable to fully comprehend them as yet.
I trust in it,
And hopefully one day I will see it,
Meet all of my loved ones there,
From the past,
And spread my wings.
It will be glorious.
Life is full of surprises!
The relationships that form,
The elders will always say,
“I told you so”,
And the youngers will always give them a reason to say so.
We can dream,
We can plan,
Try to manipulate what lies ahead,
We can all climb,
Try to conquer,
Competitively bump heads,
We may win some,
But the only certainty that we have,
Is that one day,
We shall all be dead!
What lies ahead?
I do not know,
But I know what it is,
To be stuck,
To feel frightened,
No longer full of fuel and steady flow,
But ground to a halt,
Feeling lower then low,
While everyone else seems to,
To be left Alone,
Locked up in a dark cage,
Whilst the world keeps spinning for them,
But not you.
You may end up on an alien path,
But you are still in the game,
There for you can bounce back,
Full of battle scars,
But with pride and not shame,
It’s not easy,
But nothing worth it is!
Perhaps deserted by loved ones,
Left to combat alone,
But you are not on your own,
You have me.
There’s a golden letter at sea,
Floating in a green glassed bottle,
It’s a message for you,
That has lost their way,
Saying that you are not alone,
I empathise with your struggles,
Take your time,
Hold my hand,
And get in line for combat,
With your head held high,
We hear the echoes of defeat,
Through a hollow drum,
We are strong,
We March in a band of percussion,
We will get back on our feet,
And fight for recovery,
Until we feel strong,
And find our way back,
To the right track,
We loose far too many lives to suicide,
I don’t want that,
I mean it,
So come and join No One,
Demons be gone,
I guarantee you have me as a plus one,
And hopefully soon,
We shall be joined by everyone.
Take a look at No one (@adiaryfromnoone): https://twitter.com/adiaryfromnoone?s=09
A FESTIVAL FROM NO ONE RETURNS! May it be just as successful if not more so then last years…
I would like to publically thank all that have supported me so far this year, those of you that visited me in hospital, those that have stayed in contact with me throughout my mental health struggles, in person, via social media, phone calls, emails and texts, those of you that celebrated my birthday with me whilst I was released from hospital for a few hours and those of you who have shared, posted and donated towards my crowdfunding. I am now out of hospital. I am continuing my journey of recovery and my main priority right now is organising my festival, “A FESTIVAL FROM NO ONE RETURNS”! I am very proud to announce that I have hit my target of £1100!!! This would not have been possible without your help. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you and promise to organise the most inspiring, motivational, informative, creative and insightful day on July 22nd that I can and that the contributions donated to charity will be put to good use within the mental health system. This is a joint venture and I thank all that have helped once more. You are all saints! As always, this year has had so much sadness and disaster but so much so on our doorsteps of late. I am so sorry for the people that have lost loved ones in Manchester and London this year. I admire the vast amount of good people in my social media network who have come together and helped those in need. It proves that there is still goodness and that there are still kind hearted people in this world, and we must hold onto that in solidarity.
I focus on mental health because it is close to my heart and such a big part of my own life, my empathy for others whom struggle gives me strength to fight for the cause of mental health awareness. I have always cared about others more then myself. It is hard work but a great pleasure to try and create something positive for the greater good of others! This world without selfless acts and genuine good will is one that I do not want to be a part of, one person can idealise, a unity of people can actually make things happen. Together we are! Join me, and we shall! xxx
Ice daggers nest amidst the crisp air.
Layers are not spared for the Pigs in blankets.
Jingle upon jingle,
The Jenga walls rise,
Consistent with roaring repetition.
The greenery glistens with Diamonds and Jewels,
Competing with the twinkling stars,
The brightest at the peak,
A sea of Gold, Frankincense and Myrrh below.
The blaze of Cherrie’s and Marmalade crackle.
The spit and roasting sizzles,
Clinks and clanks activate and churn the spinning windmill.
Imitation’s of Ho Ho Ho escape unheard,
Shoulders rub together,
The old and the young,
The festive season has begun!
Merry Christmas to one and all.