Kween Like Lizzo…

Wish I could be a kween like Lizzo,
Looking fly,
Throwing shapes at the disco.
Instead I am lying low,
Locked up in the dark,
Not living my best life,
And letting my juices flow.
Don’t judge me because I ain’t a size zero,
Thick thighs not out,
But covered up,
Not alfresco.
Think you know me,
Well I don’t think so,
You just assume,
But I ain’t filling trollies full of junk in Tesco.
I’m sick so I’m full of medication,
Instead of healing,
I’m feeling ashamed because of society’s pushed and unrealistic misrepresentation.
My weight should not be the topic of conservation,
Put your energy into some other dedication,
Hold back and have some reservation.
If my weight is a worry for the nation,
You’ll need to get a life and take a vacation.
Word vomit,
Throwing hate,
No hesitation,
Girls got feelings,
You just assume,
With zero investigation.
Don’t judge me,
Don’t comment,
If there is no invitation,
Keep your obnoxious judgement to yourself,
It should be you in isolation.

https://m.soundcloud.com/therealdealradioshow/episode-27-mental-health-the

I was interviewed by, “The Real Deal Show” pulse.88 Monday 26th September 2016. A main section of the show was focussed on “Mental Health” and “Mental Health In The Black Community”.
I felt privileged to be given the platform to discuss my personal mental health and experiences.
I am passionate about raising awareness of mental health, it baffles me how there is so much stigma and shame projected towards the subject, so much fear and ignorance, which we all know leads to hate crime, exclusion and segregation. No one is immune to having bad mental health, it can be genetic, it can be random, it can be the repercussions of ones environment. The more the subject is discussed, the more people understand, I believe that will result in less negativity and lead to more support, understanding and empathy.
I held a festival in July (check out YouTube adiaryfromnoone) to raise awareness for mental health. I am in the middle of writing an autobiography which focusses on thr events leading upto my breakdown and my first steps towards recovery. I blog, I write poetry, I vlog and I am determined to raise awareness of mental health. I am not sure I can reach the world alone. Please help, either read my work on this site, listen/watch my vlog’s on YouTube, what ever you prefer. Not only that, please revisit and share! There are strengths in numbers and mental health is a valid cause.
I feature in the following clip, around thirty minutes in. Have a listen.