Alone

Is it possible to feel whole without another?
As we grow older,
More and more people seem to find each other,
Couple up,
Merge together,
One becomes two,
It’s very common,
What people seem to do.
Then comes three,
Four,
And maybe more,
Strength in numbers,
Wedding rings,
Erase casual and saucy flings,
Commitment and a future,
Trumps single hood and uncertainty,
And those left behind may as well drift out to sea.
They have forgotten the people whom are left alone,
People like me,
Without a thought,
Or any sympathy,
Because the couples now have a different reality,
They have completely forgotten what it is like to be lonely.
Excluded,
Now separated by category,
Roaming in the wilderness,
Alone,
Unhappy,
Despite trying really hard not to be,
I wonder if this is how it shall always be for me!?
Probably,
Life is not a fairytale,
We can’t all get what we want,
And we can’t all be happy,
Such a notion does not reflect reality.
Yet with so many negatives already stacked against me,
It would have been nice to not also have cupids arrow shoot right past me!
Tears fall heavy,
My heart beats fast,
If I must endure this pain forever more,
I do not know how long I can last.
I am starting to dream less about the future,
Longing for this pain and isolation to cease,
Weak from getting up from continuous rejection,
Longing for those who long for me not,
Being toyed with like trash,
Dropped,
Ghosted,
Forgot,
Swiped left and left to rot,
Showered with deceit,
Lead on,
Played,
I know longer have the energy to get back on my feet,
My heart saddened,
Bruised,
And black,
Once radiant,
Beaming,
Give,
Give,
Giving love,
Now barely beats,
Damaged goods!
Sad and defeated,
I am stuck,
Alone.

Shadows Of Reflection

As I walk alone in the shadows of reflection,
The ceiling is my earth,
The ground my sky,
Snowflakes fall like flames of fire,
Each drop burns my skin,
As I breath I drown,
The oxygen texture is like water,
Alone and lost,
I am searching,
Not fully understanding who for,
Or where to begin,
Something,
Or someone,
Wants me,
Terribly confused,
Deterred by nature,
All odds stacked against me,
But I feel a strong pulling from my core,
Like a magnet,
I am connected,
Drawn in,
I do not understand this mad and lonely world that I am in.