All over the TV

This girl can bare the character of many faces, Believe me she’s going places, On the right path she’s going to the top,
She ain’t never gonna stop.
Her big dream,
Achievable,
Not a fantasy,
Reality,
This is her destiny.
All the bumps fuel the pumps of ignition,
She’s wound up and ready to go, Despite many attempts of ruining her flow,
You supported her she needed that,
But now all is lost,
To the debt of a mighty cost, Once proud now ashamed and distant practically lost.
I never meant to embarrass you, I never meant to let you down,
I never took away all the air,
I never wanted to drown.
Now so many have surpassed me,
I see them all over TV,
Whilst I stay back suffering from mental fragility,
I know the top is a place,
A place that has no room or space for a loser like me,
Mentally fit and positively different I wish it could be, I’ll be the one on the box for all to see,
I’ll be the one making you proud cashing in the money,
And because I’m not,
You’ve forgotten how to love me,
I never needed you back then when I was independent and strong,
I was on the right path on the right track and knew where I belong,
Out of everything that I’ve lost what saddens me the most is losing you,
I’m truly sorry for any pain or torture I put you through,
I wish you understood that my mental instability is not not a path that I would have chosen for me or to hurt you,
BPD is not what I ever believed I had,
Would ruin me,
Ouch this path pains me,
More than it does you,
It’s true,
And no matter what though,
I love you.

A tribute to a Legend…

“Crack is wack!”‘ She said,
But everyone has their vices,
Legendary and known to all,
But even the mighty can fall!
Acting, singing, dancing,
Performing was her game,
That was her art and passion,
But the drugs were her flame.
She didn’t know her own strength for true,
Got lost in drugs when feeling blue,
To see her through.
It was tragic how she died,
Not at all dignified,
She could have got help,
But in denial swore she was clean,
She lied.
Her memory lives strong,
We can still listen to song after song,
But she is dead, buried and gone.
Our Whitney,
The epitome of warranted fame and beauty,
Lost but not forgotten,
Her lyrics still ring true to me,
Timeless,
She lives on in our hearts.