How is it so?
Out and about amongst festive cheer,
Yet I am quivering with fear.
I don’t know what’s the matter,
I don’t fully know what is wrong,
I just feel isolated,
In a room full of lovely people,
My feelings are supressed and suffocated,
I am not at one but trying to be deceitful.
I want to fit in,
Let laughter outbursts linger on,
But I ain’t strong,
With others or alone,
I just don’t belong!